July 15, 2006
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I just don’t understand it sometimes…(life, if you know what I mean). I watch as the people who influence me and I influence them find their happy ending, yet I never do. Am I condemned to living a life of wandering over the planet, doing good and sharing all of me in to little bread crumbs and receive none in return? I just don’t understand. Maybe becoming emo isn’t such a bad idea, since I have these ravings.

Why is it that I never receive emotional happiness and only physical happiness, with useless items to decor the body and the environment? Is it because I am “bad” or “evil”? Did I ever do something wrong?

 I try to be nice. I try to be polite. Even when I do something right, somebody usually gets hurt. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. No more.


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Arise from the dead.

July 12, 2006

I’m baaaaaaack! I’ve been in New York the past two weeks, which was extremely boring. Kinda. I read 4 books, including the sequel to A Million Little Pieces which was depressing. I also started running. I met two really hot french kids there, but, unfortunately, as my luck goes, they were taken. Hmph. That’s okay, I have someone here in mind. ::Sigh:: ^^ Not sure where that one is going either, but, I’m taking it one day at a time. I can’t believe that summer is almost over again. It just seemed like it was just yesterday that we got out of school. Time flies, doesn’t it?

My hair is now 1 inch long, and white blond. Yes, it looks different, but I love it, and that’s all that matters. I plan to dye it red soon.

It’s official! I am a proud owner of a 2001 VW Beetle Turbo in Red. I’m so happy! It’s my dream car, and I have finally been able to acheive it! Now, if only I could drive…plus use a stick shift….

This is going to be a good year, I can tell.

 l33t m4st3r